Follow your heart but...

"Follow your heart

But

Take your brain with you"

Stick with you

If

you're lucky enough

to find someone

that makes you feel

like the only thing in the world,

don't be dumb enough to take it for granted.

Stick with them,

fight for them,

and never let go

I can't describe it with words

Trying to look at the bright side

It's been almost a week since I was told about the news, and today, they keep on asking me the same thing.

"I heard rumors that you.. bla, bla, bla... Is it true?"

Hm... yeah, rumors. Well, I was only telling myself that it is all just a rumor, but the more people ask you, the more you'd feel like it is true. And that's it! I'll just try to look it at the bright side!

Well, yes undeniably, there were just so many things happened lately. The goods and the bads. If something good happens, of course you'll feel so pleased about it. But what if the bad thing happens? Would you cry? mourn? shout? laugh? stare? or just do nothing?

All the answers above, are just OK OK to me. I mean, maybe I'll do as those, but in the end, the moral of the story is ZERO. Thus, I'm trying to look at the bright side of it.

I have to admit that I somehow feel a little bit pressure about the news. There were also time when I keep on questioning myself.
Why it has to be me?
Why it has to be this way?
Why must it be this hard?
Why?
Why?
Why?

And the questions keep going on.. but again.. the moral of the story is ZERO.

So now, I guess the best thing is to accept the fact that, "my boss proposed my name for a transfer". And I will be soon transferred to "God knows where", maybe to a bigger city, maybe to other place with more challenging environment and culture.

*sigh*

I hope it'll be a good start. I hope, it'll be a better opportunity for me to gain more experience. I hope, it'll be a great stepping stone for me to build up my career.

And there, it makes me to ponder.



ps: Am still thankful, for I have supportive colleague who never fail to share experiences and advices through all the days.
pss: And him who always be there and listens.
pss: O Lord, give us guidance and courage to face the life ahead.

.. losing grip...

Idk, but lately, I've been watching a lot of Malay dramas, and there, it makes me thinking a lot about life. I seldom watch Malay drama because to me, some of the plots appear to be so fake.. Well, I prefer more thrills and twists in the drama itself, in return, i'll ponder and try to relate the message in the drama to myself. I guess Hollywood dramas also applies to this, just the fact that, I'm not interested in something that doesn't give me anything or something I couldn't learn from...

And there, as always and what the audience expected too.. a drama always ends with a happy ending.. but the journey to a happy ending is not always easy.. there will always be the third party.. there will always be conflicts and arguments.. there will also be disappointment, heartbreaks and problems occurred..

Sometimes, it's all too much.. until at one time you feel like you can't take it anymore.. You keep on questioning yourself, when will such things going to end.. from personal to the organisation that you're working with.. It's all a big deals to you.. health problem, eating disorder, feelings, partner, mum and dad, siblings, financial, bills, workloads, colleague and boss, performance and reputation, expectation.. and the list goes on.. .. until, u feel like it's all too much..

*sigh*

Two lost souls trying to find way back