This time, I'll let my tears running..

Dear S,

It hurts to hurt you,
I wish I could undone things,
I wish I wouldn't have to choose,
I wish that we could have stayed,
I wish things are good just like the old days.

But, time flies,
Things changed,
You've changed,
Either do I..

I am sorry S..

Truthfully,
Your bestie

She, a tough girl

It was a gloomy morning. She was late again. She hassled to her cubicle to put all her stuffs. There was something on her table. It was a gift. She then took a closer look at the perfectly wrapped token. It was a mug. It was written there;

Virgo the virgin
Perfectionist
Practical
Diligent and reliable
Critical
Analytical
Modest
Intelligent

She stood there, with the mug in front of her. For long, she thought deep, scheming the words one by one.

*sigh

Persevere.
There's no such word of "give-up" in her dictionary of life..
Through all the hardships,
all the tears and pain,
she was a tough girl.
And there,
she was hoping that she still is...


"Life is not a bed of roses"

What I've missed

Well, I know I hate to admit this, but..

(Enjoy shopping with my besties back then, but the stunning legs above are definitely not ours)

I miss shopping so damn much!

Last year, which was also my final year of Uni, I went shopping for at least once or twice a week! And now, being a fresh graduate who just started working for few months, I started to miss my so called 'shopping moments' back then, which I've decided to give up ever since I started working. Well, that's probably because my partner told me so although we know that both of us are spend-drifters. Yeah, him on cars and me on 'from head-to-toe'. But, it's hard to give up something that you've been enjoying so much, you know.

Well, I know I never talk openly like this, in my blog, because if i go through all my entries, they're definitely all about feelings, stories which I tend to keep it all anonymous, love and life that we all probably 've learnt in the hard way and etc.

So why am I writing this?

Self-reflection maybe. Gosh, been living in such a pressuring life lately,with workloads and everything and what I've been so used to enjoy during the hard time last time is definitely shopping. It's like a therapy. It's just that nowadays, my mum told me to learn how to manage my money and plus my partner also told me to stop spending so much on unnecessary stuffs. Well, I have somehow agree with them, because last time I don't have commitments or bills to pay. But now, since my mom strictly threatened me to start learning to manage my account, I guess I just don't have choice.

And here I am, been thinking of what I've missed so much!

I'm actually looking for something similar to this brown killer platforms (I also miss how I actually love platforms so much back then), and a matching stunning brown handbag.

The innocent and the pretender

One is innocent and another pretends to.
Not innocent not necessarily is guilty.
Just another circumctance one being less naïve
Going decent is something preferable, no?
That should be attention-grabbing.
Who won’t be curious what will happen?
Which will predominate which that’s the question.
Shall we just let the time tell?
My oh my, this should be one in a million.

Taken from: whatevershewants


ps: OMG! I love this one!
pss: To the 'post owner', in case u read this, I hope I'm forgiven for taking this. *wink*


xoxo

We're inevitable

Yes, inevitable.
Certain to happen and impossible to avoid.

Despite of all the unexpected circumstances,
Of all the goods, and the bads.
Over the years we shared,
We still have one another.


Aren't we.. inevitable?

xoxo

Love game 2

Sometimes, things are better to be left unspoken.
Sometimes, things are better to be ignored.
Sometimes, things are just better for us to keep quiet.
Sometimes, things are meant to be kept, as secrets remain.

You don't know, because you were not there.
You don't know, because you don't understand.
You don't know, because you just don't even bother to know.
You don't know because you are just the other person.

Therefore, most of the time,
You think,
It's all about you..


ps:

I don't have to tell


xoxo

Adrenaline rush

How do you feel;
Waking up late to go to work, having a boss who is a big fan of punctuality, need to be at certain check points at the right time so that you wouldn't be caught up in the traffic jammed?
Finding out something that you don't like, holding up your anger and sarcasm words, having uneasy feelings, stress and anxiety?
Having to do so much thing at a time, having lots of stuff in your mind, need to get everything done on time, pushing yourself to the limit?


How does it feel?
Indescribable isn't it?


Adrenaline rush?
Occur when the epinephrine hormone, is released in response to situations that exciting, dangerous or threatening.


Function?
It helps a person to cope with stressful or emergency situations.
A boost of glucose and oxygen are sent to the brain and muscles while other bodily functions are suppressed.

Significance?
It can be important in a "fight or flight" situation as the effects that the hormone has on the body temporarily improve physical performance.

Effects?
Epinephrine has many effects on the body including increased oxygen and glucose to the brain and muscles, dilated pupils, increased heart rate and the elevation of blood sugar levels.

Warning?
There are some people who have become addicted to having an adrenaline rush.
If the hormone is released often enough, the body begins to memorize the associated feelings which can ultimately lead to a serious addiction which can be just as difficult to quit as any other addictive drug.

This is funny?
Certain people have experienced "super" strength during an adrenaline rush in emergency situations and have been able to lift cars, helicopters and other heavy objects that humans cannot lift under normal circumstances.

Source: http://www.ehow.com/facts_5014590_what-adrenaline-rush.html

Ponder

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost That your so alone
All you see is night And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray

Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way

Insha Allah we’ll find the way

(Insha Allah by Maher Zain)

Allah loves you

Love game

Again, Chuck and Blair! I just love this couple so damn much!
And I love the episodes of their love game, they really make a great combination.

I am not sure which episode, but I love the part where chuck flirted with a pretty girl at the bar, and Blair acted as a scorn woman. She then threw words to that poor lady for picking someone who is in a relationship as shame, no pride and no self-respect. But actually, all the drama is just a part of their love game..

Knowing Chuck, Blair always keeps the relationship interesting so that he wouldn't even have the chance to get bored while Chuck will always do anything just to get Blair happy and satisfied..

Hm, isn't that sweet?
*wink*

There is One Guy

There is one guy I’ve known

One guy who is so cute and adorable

One guy who is smart and intelligent

One guy who is patient

One guy who is generous

One guy with a kind heart inside

One guy with meaningful words and wisdom

One guy who always keeps me strong

One guy who knows me through it all

There is only one great guy I’ve known

One tough guy

That I’m always proud of...

We ride

A man was driving, heading to a special place.
A woman was sitting next to him.
They were talking when the song was played on the radio.
She grabbed his hand and said;

"I love this song. Listen to the lyrics. I dedicate this song to you."

He then turned the radio louder.
He put her in his arms, and keep driving, enjoying the song being played.

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We might have took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby...

(You're Still The One by Shania Twain)


We enjoy our ride =D

Meant to be together?

Ever watched “Gossip Girl” the series? OMG! I’m a big fan of the series. Feel like watching it over and over again. ( I hope it’s not too much to have such an innocent obsession)



Well, and I am also a big fan of the couple Chuck and Blair. I guess they are just meant to be together. No matter whatever happened, they just don’t suit to anyone else but each other. Is that what we call meant to be? Well, I know that the word ‘fate and destiny’ are big words to talk about here, so, I prefer the phrase ‘meant to be’ where the definition is at least has been narrowed down a bit (I guess).

Let me get you into the picture here;

A boy and a girl have known each other perhaps because they attended the same school or maybe their parents knew each other well. Born and bred in quite alike social background made them to get along well. Knowing each other for quite some time has made them become close friends which could also make each other such a good company. Well, of course “a friend in need is a friend indeed” right? So, having each other as ‘God knows what’ for quite a while has made these two become a good pair.

Just like any other relationship, there are also hot and cold. Arguments and disagreements are like “frienemy” to them. From a boy to a man, from a girl to a woman, the issues seem endless to this couple. But in the end, no matter how many struggles that has put them through, throughout all the love and hate and then love again, and.. they realized that they just couldn’t suit to anyone else but each other well. (Hm, that’s what I’ve known so far because of course the fairytale has not finished yet).

So what do you think the ending is? Will she become the Queen of her Prince Charming? Or maybe the fairytale just has no ending?

Suits yourself.

xoxo

Perfect

A friend of mine once told me that “the synonym of perfect is boring”.

Well, I could never agree more with her statement because to me ‘perfect’ never exist. The theory is easy, “no one is perfect”, well except for one that we Muslims know, our Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him), same goes to other religions as well.

Often we heard the saying goes; “To err is human”.

Yep, I couldn’t argue more because to me as we ourselves are named as human, we are so synonym with mistakes. Well, not to say that human can make mistakes but it is undeniable that human tend to make mistakes no matter how perfect we wanted things to be.

There is one fact that I always bear in mind which is ‘individual differences’ that make everyone with his very own intelligence. Each individual has his own strengths so as weaknesses, so isn’t that make “no one is perfect”?

Sometimes, we people are too busy looking forward perfection until we actually have overlooked the strengths when the fact that everyone has his very own strengths. Thus, look beyond the imperfection because that’s the only way to find the beauty of it.

But how about people who often see others so perfectly without noticing the flaws of others? Are these people really the nice people?

Well, sometimes it’s good to see the goods in people which could also be a positive thing. But sometimes, you should at least expect the worse so that when things go wrong, you wouldn’t be too disappointed accepting the fact.

So if “no one is perfect”, how can we look beyond the imperfection to discover the beauty underneath it?

I’d love to quote from the book “The Rules of Love” by Richard Templar (It’s an interesting book though);

“The best teams contain people with different strengths.Accept the differences, embrace what you have in common.”

But I guess, you know your taste better.

So, suits yourself then.

xoxo

Thanks for loving me

Thanks,
Thanks for being there through all the thick and thin,
Thanks for listening every bits and pieces,
Thanks for making things seems right when it all went wrong,
Thanks for holding me, not letting me to fall,
Thanks for standing there right beside me,
Thanks for you never fail, to give me the best of everything,
Thanks mom,
Thanks dad,
Thanks sister,
Thanks brother,
Thanks dearest,
Thanks besties,
I just couldn't imagine myself without you people,
Thanks for loving me..

Me and him

Apa dia?

One lovely morning, a woman went to have her breakfast at the Hotel Cafe. She was looking for the waiter to give her breakfast coupon, but nobody turned up. So, she went to take her meal. Suddenly a waiter came up and asked for the breakfast coupon.

"....et..."
"Huh?"
"...et.."
"Ohw, one one seven."
"Hm, boleh cakap Melayu tak?"
"Ohw ok. Boleh."
"Tiket?"
(La, dari tadi dia mintak tiket ke...)


Baiklah. Saya nak cakap Bahasa Melayu.
Kadang-kadang kita kena cakap Bahasa Melayu walaupun kita pergi makan bufet di hotel. Ini kerana kita tidak boleh mengganggap semua pekerja hotel itu faham apa yang kita cakap. Tetapi, pada pendapat saya, kesilapan berkomunikasi tadi terjadi kerana pekerja hotel itu bertanya dengan suara yang terlalu perlahan ataupun wanita itu tidak menumpukan perhatian kepada pertanyaan tersebut.


Sorang cakap ayam, sorang cakap itik. Macam mana nak faham?


Bahasa Jiwa Bangsa.

Sekian terima kasih.

Car

Yes, car.

According to the Longman (lelaki panjang) Dictionary of Contemporary English, car is defined as a vehicle with four wheels and an engine, that can carry a small number of passengers.
Some people might just think that a car is just a vehicle to transport them from place to place, some think that a car is a symbol of status, while some might have their own definition about car according to their very own dictionary of life.

As for me, I'd chose the latter.
Why?
Because car(s) has (I consider it as an uncountable) taught me a lot for who I am today.

I started to have my driving license after i finished schooling, when i was 18. I remembered, i wasn't a good driver back then because i seldom drive at that time and didn't even bother of having or driving a car. My first car was a Kancil (well not really my car as it is not under my name, and i didn't pay for the instalments) about 3 years back. And with this Kancil also, I travelled KL-Johore alone whenever breaks. Alhamdulillah, no major accident while I was driving this Kancil. I was a girl who does not even bother about ways to places but with this Kancil, I've learnt to memorize the route to places. I was with this Kancil for about a year and changed it to Iswara SE (also not really my car since it's under my mom's name) just because my friends commented on my bad habit of driving like a roller coaster with this Kancil =P.

And there, with this Iswara, I've experienced scrathces, accidents and break downs through out the years with her. I was doing my third year of my uni when I started driving this Iswara until I graduated and I was still using it for the first few months of working (if I was not mistaken). Name it. My car got scratched for I dunno how many times, got hit by other car or could be bigger than that for few times at the parking lot (one in UM one at my house area), I hit an old Nissan Sunny when I wanted to park my car in front of the tuition centre (my mistake because I was talking on the phone that time), i hit a Kenari at the traffic light because I was late to lecture so I wanted to catch the traffic light before it turns red, my back bumper hit a Hilux when I was reversing my car out of the parking lot with my BFF in the car complaining for the air-cond which was not functioning that time, hit the divider at the parking lot when I went to Mid Valley with Asma and my lil sis Wani, was hit by a 1 tonne lorry at the PLUS highway when I was driving back from KL to Johore. I also faced car broke down such as oil leaking, air-cond not functioning, out of battery, overheating, gasket got broke and I got towed and etc. *sigh.

What a loooooong list, isn't it?

And now, I'm relieved that I've changed to other car, my very own car, finally....

Well, not a very expensive one but at least being a fresh graduate like me, I still can afford it.

And of course, behind all these, there is a man who has been there from the beginning, up until now.
I couldn't imagine myself without him.


This is my dream car. Went to have a look at this Civic yesterday with him and i started to like it too. =D

This is my car, without skirting and the new plate number.


This is his car, without the new cf bonnet.


So, this is the entry about car.
See, the word car means a lot to me. *wink

Who are you to judge?

I was told in a workshop;

Life is a long struggle.
Do not judge people because you yourself might also struggling with your own life-long struggle.
But, it is our duty to help each other with our struggles.

Well, yes.
Sometimes, people tend to be judgmental towards what is seen in the eyes.
Sometimes, people are more concern about finding others' flaws neglecting the good deeds of others.
Sometimes, people are just complaining without being grateful for what they have.
Sometimes, people are just being people, joking about other people's weaknesses without any sense of respect, disregard the sensitivity of other people's feelings and emotion.

Well, do you think that these people are the good people who has the privilege to judge?
Are they not like those who are always tested with challenges as the Almighty God's creations?

...many times in life, we do the wrong things, we are not angle.
But, feel guilty about it, acknowledge yourself immediately.
Immediately following up with something good..

...Allah promises to those who are hardworking, determined towards the right things...

(quoted from the workshop I attended)


So, be good and help others to be good.
You could make a difference.

So, instead of condemning, help others to find the right path, ok?