Trying to look at the bright side

It's been almost a week since I was told about the news, and today, they keep on asking me the same thing.

"I heard rumors that you.. bla, bla, bla... Is it true?"

Hm... yeah, rumors. Well, I was only telling myself that it is all just a rumor, but the more people ask you, the more you'd feel like it is true. And that's it! I'll just try to look it at the bright side!

Well, yes undeniably, there were just so many things happened lately. The goods and the bads. If something good happens, of course you'll feel so pleased about it. But what if the bad thing happens? Would you cry? mourn? shout? laugh? stare? or just do nothing?

All the answers above, are just OK OK to me. I mean, maybe I'll do as those, but in the end, the moral of the story is ZERO. Thus, I'm trying to look at the bright side of it.

I have to admit that I somehow feel a little bit pressure about the news. There were also time when I keep on questioning myself.
Why it has to be me?
Why it has to be this way?
Why must it be this hard?
Why?
Why?
Why?

And the questions keep going on.. but again.. the moral of the story is ZERO.

So now, I guess the best thing is to accept the fact that, "my boss proposed my name for a transfer". And I will be soon transferred to "God knows where", maybe to a bigger city, maybe to other place with more challenging environment and culture.

*sigh*

I hope it'll be a good start. I hope, it'll be a better opportunity for me to gain more experience. I hope, it'll be a great stepping stone for me to build up my career.

And there, it makes me to ponder.



ps: Am still thankful, for I have supportive colleague who never fail to share experiences and advices through all the days.
pss: And him who always be there and listens.
pss: O Lord, give us guidance and courage to face the life ahead.

.. losing grip...

Idk, but lately, I've been watching a lot of Malay dramas, and there, it makes me thinking a lot about life. I seldom watch Malay drama because to me, some of the plots appear to be so fake.. Well, I prefer more thrills and twists in the drama itself, in return, i'll ponder and try to relate the message in the drama to myself. I guess Hollywood dramas also applies to this, just the fact that, I'm not interested in something that doesn't give me anything or something I couldn't learn from...

And there, as always and what the audience expected too.. a drama always ends with a happy ending.. but the journey to a happy ending is not always easy.. there will always be the third party.. there will always be conflicts and arguments.. there will also be disappointment, heartbreaks and problems occurred..

Sometimes, it's all too much.. until at one time you feel like you can't take it anymore.. You keep on questioning yourself, when will such things going to end.. from personal to the organisation that you're working with.. It's all a big deals to you.. health problem, eating disorder, feelings, partner, mum and dad, siblings, financial, bills, workloads, colleague and boss, performance and reputation, expectation.. and the list goes on.. .. until, u feel like it's all too much..

*sigh*

Two lost souls trying to find way back

Renungan: Keaiban Yang Ditutup Allah

Kita sebagai manusia merupakan makhluk yang bersifat lemah dan hamba yang penuh dengan kebergantungan kepada Allah SWT. Sepanjang kita hidup saban hari, kita tidak mungkin terlepas daripada melakukan dosa. Dosa yang kita lakukan itu boleh jadi secara terang-terangan atau secara sembunyi-sembunyi. Dosa yang terang-terangan akan mengundang rasa malu kita terhadap orang lain, melainkan jika hati kita sudah menjadi sekeras batu. Oleh itu, kita lebih banyak melakukan dosa yang tersembunyi. Dosa yang tidak siapa tahu melainkan kita dan Allah.

Daripada An Nawas bin Sam'an RA, Nabi SAW bersabda:

"Kebajikan itu keluhuran akhlak sedangkan dosa adalah apa-apa yang dirimu merasa ragu-ragu dan kamu tidak suka jika orang lain mengetahuinya." (HR Muslim)

Kalau dibukakan segala dosa yang kita lakukan, tentu tidak akan ada sesiapa yang akan menghormati kita. Kalau Allah membuka segala dosa yang kita lakukan sembunyi-sembunyi baik dalam pandangan, pendengaran, perbuatan, ataupun lintasan hati, nescaya tidak akan ada pun manusia yang mahu memuji kita. Pujian yang manusia berikan adalah atas zahir yang terlihat mata. Namun, kita tentu lebih mengenali diri sendiri dan lebih tahu bagaimana status kita.

Apakah kita berasa sangat suci sehingga tidak pernah melakukan dosa di belakang manusia atau diri kita ini penuh dengan dosa rahsia? Misalnya di saat kita seorang diri melayari internet dan tidak ada mata lain yang melihat, apakah kita sudah melepasi batas penglihatan yang diizinkan Allah? Bagaimana dengan prasangka buruk dalam hati kita yang telah dilemparkan kepada sekian banyak manusia lain tanpa pengetahuan mereka? Bagaimana pula dengan perbuatan-perbuatan kita tatkala berseorangan? Astaghfirullahalaziim, banyak sangat dosa kita!

Firman Allah:

"...Dan janganlah kamu mendekati perbuatan-perbuatan yang keji, baik yang nampak di antaranya maupun yang tersembunyi..." (Surah Al-An'am:151)

Allah Maha Penyayang dan Dia tahu betapa lemahnya kita. Lalu Dia menutup keaiban-keaiban kita sehingga kita mampu berjalan di tengah-tengah manusia tanpa rasa malu, sekalipun kita telah melakukan segunung dosa di belakang mereka. Namun, adalah sesuatu yang sangat takabur jika dengan Allah pun kita tidak berasa malu. Bukankah Allah mengetahui apa yang tidak diketahui oleh manusia lain tentang diri kita? Maka, setiap kali kita ingin melakukan dosa di belakang manusia, ingatlah bahawa ada Allah yang lebih patut kita rasa malu kepadaNya berbanding manusia.

Mengapa? Kerana di akhirat kelak bukan manusia yang akan menghitung amalan kita. Allah yang paling tahu tentang diri kita dan Dia jugalah yang akan menghitung amalan kita. Hanya dengan rahmatNya kita akan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga. Kalau kita merasakan lindungan Allah ke atas keaiban kita itu adalah satu zon selesa, maka kita silap. Boleh jadi keaiban yang Allah tutup sementara atas muka bumi ini akan dibukakan kepada seluruh umat manusia di akhirat kelak jika kita tak benar-benar bertaubat kepadaNya.

Kadang-kadang kita suka mencanangkan dosa orang lain, sekalipun dosa tersebut tidak diceritakannya kepada orang lain, hanya kepada kita. Ingatlah akan sebuah hadith:

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. berkata:

"...Dan sesiapa yang menutup keaiban seorang muslim maka Allah ta'ala akan menutup keaibannya di dunia dan di akhirat. Dan Allah Ta'ala akan sentiasa menolong seorang hamba selama ia menolong saudaranya..." (HR Muslim)

Hadis ini menyeru kita untuk memelihara keaiban orang lain. Sebagai timbal balik, Allah akan menutup keaiban kita di dunia dan di akhirat. Subhanallah! Masihkah kita berhajat untuk mencanangkan dosa orang lain sehingga Allah juga akan membuka keaiban kita nanti? Malulah kepada Allah, takutlah kepada ancaman Allah. Jika kita hanya malu kepada manusia, kita tidak akan malu berbuat dosa di belakang mereka. Namun jika kita malu kepada Allah, kita akan sentiasa memelihara diri daripada dosa, dalam terang-terangan atau sembunyi-sembunyi.

Waspadalah akan firman Allah:

"Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang ingin agar (berita) perbuatan yang amat keji itu tersiar di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman, bagi mereka azab yang pedih di dunia dan di akhirat. Dan Allah mengetahui, sedang, kamu tidak mengetahui." (Surah An-Nuur: 19)

Apabila Allah telah menutup keaiban kita, janganlah pula kita yang membukanya. Setelah selesai dosa sembunyi-sembunyi kita, janganlah diceritakan kepada orang lain. Renungilah sebuah hadis di bawah:

Diriwayatkan dari Abu Hurairah RA ia berkata,

"Aku pernah mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Seluruh umatku akan diampuni dosa-dosa kecuali orang-orang yang terang-terangan (berbuat dosa). Di antara orang-orang yang terang-terangan berbuat dosa adalah seseorang yang pada waktu malam berbuat dosa, kemudian di waktu pagi ia menceritakan kepada manusia dosa yang dia lakukan semalam, padahal Allah telah menutupi aibnya. Ia berkata, "Wahai fulan, semalam aku berbuat ini dan itu". Sebenarnya pada waktu malam Tuhannya telah menutupi perbuatannya itu, tetapi justru pagi harinya ia membuka aibnya sendiri yang telah ditutupi oleh Allah." (Muttafaqun 'alaih HR Bukhari dan Muslim).

Sungguh, Allah sentiasa menginginkan kebaikan bagi kita. Allah sentiasa membuka peluang dan ruang bagi kita untuk kembali bertaubat atas dosa yang kita lakukan di sebalik tabir. Namun, kita yang sebenarnya tidak mengambil peluang dan tidak menghargai tutupan-tutupan aib tersebut oleh Allah SWT. Setelah apa yang Allah lindungi daripada sekian banyak keaiban kita, apakah tidak wajar untuk kita bersyukur dan bertaubat? Renung-renungkan dan muhasabahlah diri kita, insyaAllah.

Source: iluvislam

Some things to ponder

"The Believers, men and women, are protectors one of another: they enjoin what is just, and forbid what is evil: they observe regular prayers, practice regular charity, and obey Allah and His Messenger. On them will Allah pour His mercy: for Allah is Exalted in power, Wise."


At-Taubah (9:71)

ps: We turn to God when our foundations are shaking without knowing that it is God who is shaking them for reasons known to Him only.

Words to ponder

"Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, but the realization of what you have."

I came across this quotation as I was flipping from page to page, the book that I bought last Monday. Yes, off from station again due to some duty need to be done, so I took this opportunity to at least get something for myself too. A small quotations book for a reminder to myself and maybe for us all to ponder.

"Do not pray unless you believe God will answer."

Since I was a little girl, I always wanted to be a successful career woman. My mother used to tell me;

"Things don't come easily. You have to work hard."

Holding on mother's words since I was very little, I never have such word of 'give-up' in my 'dictionary of life'.

I still remember when I met some of my childhood friends yesterday, a mini-gathering that made us to reminisce the memory back when we were kids. One of my friends told me that I always get the first place in class, and there was one year, I fall to the second place, I cried. We all thought that was funny, and we laughed at it. They even said, that's just a small matter, who would want to bother so much about what number you'd get in class? But to me, I guess, it means a lot, though I was only a little girl that time. Expectations maybe.

Last Wednesday, after a long-hour work, due to an event that we need to work on, we went to get some drinks. Well, of course, it always be me who is the youngest among the members of the table. There was actually something they said, that had really stroke me.

"You cannot expect much from people because it could disappoint you."

Well, yes. Couldn't argue more to that statement.

So no argument. =)

I remembered, one of my uncles' words.

"In whatever you do, you need to concern the sensitivity of people around you."

I guess, whoever you are, whatever attitude you have, but when it comes to this social affairs, you have to try to blend in.

Come to think about it. Sometimes, there are just many things in life that you'd wish you wouldn't have to do it , for some people perhaps, but for real, acceptance means a lot to you.

"Sincerity is the way of heaven."

ps: Think big. You are who you think you are.

Life is...

My mom once told me,

"God will always test us with many challenges in life. Thus, we've got to be strong."

And my sister used to tell me,

"God tested us because of His love upon us."

Yes, life is a test.

Often people say,

"Life is like a drama"
"Life is like a novel, there many chapters in it"
"Life is like a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you're gonna get"
And
"Life..."
"Life..."
"Life..."

There are just undeniably many thoughts and wisdom about life. But to me...

"Life is a test"

But yet, despite of all challenges in life, the main point that we need to always remember and have faith on is, to be strong. There always be reasons for everything and sometimes, when you think that things turn to be bad, but actually it is not that bad at all. So, always have faith that you will find your happiness someday. =D

A friend once asked me,
"When you are facing difficulties in life, who will you consult or talk to?"

Surprisingly, I was speechless. Well yes, frankly speaking, I have problems to break out feelings to people, well yes, maybe sometimes there are exceptions when sometimes I do share stories and feelings with some close friends and loved ones, but mostly, I rather keep them to myself and which also actually, not a good thing to do.

"Sharing is caring"

Well, maybe this could apply. =D

When you share your thoughts and feelings with people, you would feel less burden with the things that you've been holding. Sometimes, sharing with the right person would give you the 'zing' and courage to move on. Sometimes, by telling people how you feel could actually make yourself feel better about certain things that bother you.

So, talk. But, be aware of whom you're talking to. Make sure he or she is someone who is trustworthy.

xoxo

I wish

I wish I could make everyone happy,
I wish I could make you people to like me,
I wish I could please those people around me,
I wish I could grab that attention for people to accept me,
I wish I could do all the things, give more things, hoping that I finally will be able to fit in.

But yet, What's left of me?

I wish I didn't have to push myself so much to make everything's done,
I wish I didn't have to sacrifice so much just to make it all seen perfect,
I wish I didn't have to ignore my own feelings, hoping that I am able to satisfy everyone.
I wish I didn't have to risk myself, hurt myself, just to live in people's expectation.

But in the end, What's left of me?

I just wanted to be happy

But does sincerity counts?
=D

FATE and DESTINY

Lately, I don't feel like writing my own piece. Thus, this one is another article that I found in my drive while digging some old stuff. Another Self-reflection maybe.

Many people, Muslims included, are confused about fate and destiny. They are not sure how much freewill they really have. They are not certain if they have the freedom to make their own choices, or if Allah has forced them upon a certain path.

I always believe the best way to tackle any problem is to start with the basics. So first, let’s lay some groundwork.

Here are a few things you should keep in mind.

• Allah is the creator of all things, including our actions.

• Belief in Allah’s power, knowledge and control of all things is one of the six articles of faith in Islam. This is called Qadar, loosely translated as Divine Destiny.
• A person has the freedom, the choice, to do as he/she wants.
• We have no control over the outcome of those choices.
• The outcome of these choices is our destiny. Only Allah knows what this destiny is.

Do You Control Your Destiny? Or Are You A Slave To Fate?

For example, say for instance you decide to go into business for yourself. You do all the necessary research. You consult others in the field. You draw up a sound business plan and line up multiple investors. You do everything possible to ensure that your business is a success.

Does any of this guarantee that your business will be successful? Not at all. The economy may falter. You may have miscalculated certain expenses. A natural disaster might wipe out everything you own. There are innumerable occurrences that could adversely effect your business.

It is vital to the Muslim’s belief that we understand this concept. After all, the word Muslim means “one who submits to the will of Allah.” By accepting Allah’s power, knowledge and control of our destiny, we learn to submit to what He has prescribed for us.

Belief in Qadar, divine destiny, prevents us from becoming too boastful or too despondent. When tragedy strikes us, we must understand that it is the will of Allah, for it to happen. That way, we learn to accept it with patience and humility rather than despair and frustration.

Of course, one may become saddened or upset about unfortunate events in their life. We are only human and it is natural to react a certain way with tragedy befalls us. However, the Muslim understands that no matter how difficult said tragedy is, it was within the will of Allah, and we cannot let it paralyze us.

And if something good happens to us, belief in Qadar will prevent us from becoming too boastful or arrogant. Many successful people believe that they have attained their wealth and status because they are inherently better than others. Or that they are smarter, wiser, stronger, or just more deserving of success than others.

The truth is, they have no control over their success. They may have made certain choices, but it is Allah that made those choices work out well for them. If they had control over their success, then they should be able to control every aspect of their life and never face any sort of adversity. But the reality is that even the most successful individuals face some hardships at some point in their life.

Man may choose a certain path. But it is Allah’s will that controls what destiny that path will lead them.

Shape

I live my life in chains
Got my hands in chains
And I can't stick with the cards
That I got with a deal
Like this I must insist
That a girl's got more to do
Then be the way you think a woman should
I'm taking it into my own hands
In this man's land I can understand
Why I'm taking command
Had enough of stuff
And now it's time to think about me
I've always played it safe nothing's ever safe
Give me the courage to back my own convictions
Every decision I make I pay it back and more
Now turn the cards and let them fall to me
I don't need to play on with the hand that they have given me
I'll give it back cos it's not the way it has to be
And you can easily gamble your life away
Second after second
And day by day
You play the game or you walk away
It's a new turn on a blue day
And a cool deal of life for me
And it's all good
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart

Sometimes, heartbreak does not only apply in relationship.
But when there is too much expectation in life, it could just lead to another step of disappointment.
The shape becomes uneven.

ps: This is not a post about love
pss: Quotation is taken from "Shape" by Sugababes lyrics

Just a dream

ps: I love this song.. and the vid..
pss: Really a thumb up for this one..

She, a tough girl

It was a gloomy morning. She was late again. She hassled to her cubicle to put all her stuffs. There was something on her table. It was a gift. She then took a closer look at the perfectly wrapped token. It was a mug. It was written there;

Virgo the virgin
Perfectionist
Practical
Diligent and reliable
Critical
Analytical
Modest
Intelligent

She stood there, with the mug in front of her. For long, she thought deep, scheming the words one by one.

*sigh

Persevere.
There's no such word of "give-up" in her dictionary of life..
Through all the hardships,
all the tears and pain,
she was a tough girl.
And there,
she was hoping that she still is...


"Life is not a bed of roses"

Perfect

A friend of mine once told me that “the synonym of perfect is boring”.

Well, I could never agree more with her statement because to me ‘perfect’ never exist. The theory is easy, “no one is perfect”, well except for one that we Muslims know, our Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him), same goes to other religions as well.

Often we heard the saying goes; “To err is human”.

Yep, I couldn’t argue more because to me as we ourselves are named as human, we are so synonym with mistakes. Well, not to say that human can make mistakes but it is undeniable that human tend to make mistakes no matter how perfect we wanted things to be.

There is one fact that I always bear in mind which is ‘individual differences’ that make everyone with his very own intelligence. Each individual has his own strengths so as weaknesses, so isn’t that make “no one is perfect”?

Sometimes, we people are too busy looking forward perfection until we actually have overlooked the strengths when the fact that everyone has his very own strengths. Thus, look beyond the imperfection because that’s the only way to find the beauty of it.

But how about people who often see others so perfectly without noticing the flaws of others? Are these people really the nice people?

Well, sometimes it’s good to see the goods in people which could also be a positive thing. But sometimes, you should at least expect the worse so that when things go wrong, you wouldn’t be too disappointed accepting the fact.

So if “no one is perfect”, how can we look beyond the imperfection to discover the beauty underneath it?

I’d love to quote from the book “The Rules of Love” by Richard Templar (It’s an interesting book though);

“The best teams contain people with different strengths.Accept the differences, embrace what you have in common.”

But I guess, you know your taste better.

So, suits yourself then.

xoxo